Borrowed

Its stolen, its borrowed,
But it fits so perfectly, the smile, her eyes...
For every second spent, feels borrowed, but is priceless nonetheless...
Her touch, the way she gets to me,the way she makes me happy...yea, I've been happy,but this isn't like the normal, she has her own way to it...
Maybe its the weird situation we're in, I won't normally place myself like this, but this is different, I've tasted of something sweet, my mind and body feel lost in it, I try to pace myself so my heart doesn't get sucked in.
The closer you get, the sweeter it feels...I let go a lil' more each day. See what I want this much should not be this hard, faced with an almost impossible situation. My mind, my body yearns for you with everyday that passes; yes I crave each kiss, the hugs, semi-cuddles, petting, necking, how heated we get as we touch...feels borrowed but feels great. Wouldn't trade these moments.
Its an expression of wild romance, pure passion, desire, mental connection, physical attraction. This is 'clicking' with someone almost to a perfect level. Too good to be true at some point, then the 'but' is remembered.
It is soon forgotten though, she's just pinged, she called, she's texting :D, wow! does she feel what I feel? Is she also wrapped in this true lie. Its real so much so it can't be ignored, I'm sure (more like I hope) she sees it too. Its a borrowed feeling, but fits so well. Letting my heart race as she pings, allowing myself to get lost hearing her voice....*sigh*
No way I can be just friends, she's starting to sip into my heart, I still think about her kisses, her smile, her words, the way she gets me, she's letting my fingers move up and down her skin, they give me a rush I can't help but want. The appeal somedays is just more than I can handle, yet its still borrowed time I'm spending. I'm slowly crossing the line, everytime we touch, I want more, I want to kiss her all over, caress  slowly & awaken her, giving in to our desires. She feels this, or again I hope.
I'm giving myself into a loan I cannot pay, borrowed happiness, that's expensive but more than worth it.
Our hearts and mind connect, her smile excites me, I long to see her, hold her and get lost in the few moments we get to have, she's not some rebound, she's her own version of awesome, more than just the physical attraction, she's a friend, a sweetheart, a darling, wish she were here to stay, its not just a feeling sex would cure, its past that now. She's rocking my world, she's blowing my mind. I want time alone with her all the time, just us, lock ourselves up, give in to the emotions, give in to the passion, few words, just her looking into my eyes, forgetting the things on our minds outside, 'guiltlessly' we proceed, let go and enjoy whatever small moments we have. I've given in to the part that's unspoken and unexpressed, a part that's been kept quiet, a part I've refused to let take control of my head, now I wish I had you here, close to me...yet this is just morning, on a day I'm not sure I'd get to see her, but the butterflies that come with her thoughts are as soothing & sweet even with the uncertainty....all these thoughts, can't hold myself back,  I grab hold of my phone & text  "Bonjour Chérie, tu me manque "...